DAY ONE

Today I began my very first juice fast. I haven't eaten since around 8pm last night (tell me about it- my habits have been bad for quite some time). Right now I feel like I am starving. But I feel like I can manage this. So as long and my bad thoughts do not overcome me.

I made muffins today. Twice actually. Once for breakfast for the kids. And then I made a second batch of a much healthier muffin- Peanut Butter Banana Choc Chip muffins. There is little peanut butter and a very small amount of choc chips in them. I am trying to make my entire family a bit more healthy. I am a mom of 6 kids, 4 of them I have actually given birth to. My fiance had 2 children and we have the baby together who is now almost 4 months old. My older two are a bit chubby. I decided there was some truth so a book I am reading when the author said you can't make your kids lose weight if you're not going to join them. That's definitely true. I think it's best to be a team effort. While I am certainly not making them join me on my juice fast, I am from today forward only serving them healthy, well balanced meals and at some point I'd also like to begin an exercise regimen with them.

I think I will go to bed early in hopes of getting my mind off of food. I have only had one really weak moment when my brain decided to not cooperate with me. It's telling me "go eat a muffin, or a burrito" but another part of me is like "NO! You said you were going to do this, now do it!" so... I am doing it. And half of me wants to. While the other half says "screw it, there's always tomorrow to do it instead!" When I know my thoughts should be "Don't quit today! Wait until tomorrow" because tomorrow never comes! Trying to trick myself is not easy.


At this point I know i'd like to make it for the next 6 days- then my fiance has a party we are going to. I may actually eat there or I may not. Really not sure. It's my goal to make it at least 6 days if not much much further than that. I am going to fly back home to my moms for the weekend with the baby. I don't know how that will work out with my mom being really big on cookies and brownies. Thankfully one of my sisters that lives with her is actually working on losing weight as well. That's definitely a plus.

Now I am going to try and lay down for a nap. I just feel super tired. and lazy.